i miss..
ah gong's funeral ended today. 5 long, tiring and upsetting days. i missed ah gong. missed his presence. missed him always asing me to eat. missed him always asking me when i am coming to teach joyce tuition. missed him asking how my studies are.ah gong said he wanted to see me graduate. why din he wait till den? only a fw more months.it will be the first ceremony that he can attend =( it happened all too sudden.ah gong was still ok when i saw him on sat. i saw him walk by himself, saw him eat but when i left, he din ask me when i was coming again le.mayb he knew his time was up.they said ah gong has been asking the time every 5mins that fateful day on 20th march."niang niang" said he was leavin soon but none of us expected it so fast.
hai..everyone grieved for ah gong's death but the funeral took much of our minds away. folding incense paper into money shapes, serving guests who paid their last respects to ah gong.i guess preparation for funeral is essential in a way, at least it helps to relieve some of the grief for the moment.
people always say, you usually get to see most relatives only during a wedding or during a funeral. yah. it was at the funeral that i saw all my closer relatives.but somehow it was too late.ah gong often complained that 3rd uncle's family dun visit him.it was true.they only appeared on special occasions.even when ah ma was hospitalized, they also din go and see.yet, they made so much noise at the funeral.wat's the point of trying to show filial piety when you weren't willing to show in the first place.mayb you were busy.but is busy a reason an excuse or reason? hai.now that ah gong has left. i also dun wish to pursue anymore.
the next thing that we can do is to take good care of ah ma.i feel very helpless when i see ah ma.i dunno how to help.anyway ah ma's gonna b quite lonely le.only got a maid to take care of her cos uncle has to work. hai.a big 5 room house only leeft 2 persons.hai.i hope ah gong can bless ah ma and that she will recover soon.
anyway i realized the importance of having kids. at least ah gong left in a "re re nao nao" way and also helped to relive the burden of the funeral.n the kids brought joy to us.the cute 1 year old tyan tyan trying to walk.3 month old baby looking at us with her bright eyes.the 2 year old yunli trying to talk but can't really hear clearly.at least when these kids came, the teary aunts could smile momentarily.
hai.seems like lotsa things happening at home.the whole funeral costs over 10K.hai.i wonder how poor people can afford these large sum of money.hai.anyway just now they arguing how to bring ah ma to hospital for physiotherapy.hai.i wished i could help in a way.
hai.i look forward to graduation.to start working.i doubt i will apply for overseas job.mayb not yet.at least i know i should stay around for a while to help out with the family.
hai.busy busy for the past few days. back to settling school work.project stuff.wished to have a break but no chance.hai.decided tat i wont go for extension.want to start looking for job and getting a job asap le.
hai..everyone grieved for ah gong's death but the funeral took much of our minds away. folding incense paper into money shapes, serving guests who paid their last respects to ah gong.i guess preparation for funeral is essential in a way, at least it helps to relieve some of the grief for the moment.
people always say, you usually get to see most relatives only during a wedding or during a funeral. yah. it was at the funeral that i saw all my closer relatives.but somehow it was too late.ah gong often complained that 3rd uncle's family dun visit him.it was true.they only appeared on special occasions.even when ah ma was hospitalized, they also din go and see.yet, they made so much noise at the funeral.wat's the point of trying to show filial piety when you weren't willing to show in the first place.mayb you were busy.but is busy a reason an excuse or reason? hai.now that ah gong has left. i also dun wish to pursue anymore.
the next thing that we can do is to take good care of ah ma.i feel very helpless when i see ah ma.i dunno how to help.anyway ah ma's gonna b quite lonely le.only got a maid to take care of her cos uncle has to work. hai.a big 5 room house only leeft 2 persons.hai.i hope ah gong can bless ah ma and that she will recover soon.
anyway i realized the importance of having kids. at least ah gong left in a "re re nao nao" way and also helped to relive the burden of the funeral.n the kids brought joy to us.the cute 1 year old tyan tyan trying to walk.3 month old baby looking at us with her bright eyes.the 2 year old yunli trying to talk but can't really hear clearly.at least when these kids came, the teary aunts could smile momentarily.
hai.seems like lotsa things happening at home.the whole funeral costs over 10K.hai.i wonder how poor people can afford these large sum of money.hai.anyway just now they arguing how to bring ah ma to hospital for physiotherapy.hai.i wished i could help in a way.
hai.i look forward to graduation.to start working.i doubt i will apply for overseas job.mayb not yet.at least i know i should stay around for a while to help out with the family.
hai.busy busy for the past few days. back to settling school work.project stuff.wished to have a break but no chance.hai.decided tat i wont go for extension.want to start looking for job and getting a job asap le.
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