thoughts over the weekend
wah..very long time nv post on blog le..
hai..laos and myanmar also no time to write about..
hmm..how cum always like no time..
sian.yesterday send emails can send till today 6am..amazingly..
sigh..anyway got a lot of things to say for these few days..
hmm..yesterday went to peninsula plaza to put donation tins..
along the way saw a few burmese.so pan asked them for donation..
wah..myanmar people are very willin to donate.one donated $5, another and severl $2. whoever she asked, he/she will donate.i guess this is the myanmar culture.many people mayb here but their hearts are back in their country.their shops have donaton tins that are raising funds for temples in myanmar.hmm.what about the Singaporeans in other countries? how do they feel?
anyway went to give joyce tuition after that.sigh.dunno y.hmm.i enjoy tutoring her tho i dun earn anything.but tutoring her has helped me become slightly close to my paternal side. however, being closer to the family also meant knowing more. n knowing more made me feel helpless.ah gong is old le..think he's 80 plus..starting to show child-like characteristics.wants the maid to go toilet for him and bathe for him..asked the maid to open ironing board just to see if she knows how to open. n ah gong is tormenting people around him like calling uncles/cousins and bluffin them he has fallen down so they would go c him.a little sad.ah gong used to drive the very very long lorries. ah gong used to tell me sensible things like "must study hard".now he came to tell me to ask the maid to go bathe when she didn't want to bathe.hmm.i rem cheng chye once mentioned about her mother.about remembering her good over the years rather than only in the recent years during her old age.i want to rem ah gong's good.to keep memories of his good rather than the child like, unsensible of him now.
ah ma just kena stroke. cried when i saw her at the hospital. someone who could wlak a few km.someone who could go to Genting, go for cruises, climb Great wall of china a few years back.now lying on bed and needs help to alk around.health is really a scary thing.that day i saw ah ma walking, the next day she felt like she was in bed. only got a chance to see her once. hafen had the time to visit her again =( but sometimes, it might be that i just dun want to go. felt helpless.
the maid at ah gong's hosue has been crying.got a chance to talk to her.she missed her 5 year old son.only been in singapore for 3 months. i guess its hard for her to adapt.but she said she has to work at least 10 months to repay the agent.dunno how she is going to sruvive the long 10 months without her son.but ah gong and all other relatives are complaining that she only knows how to cry but can't work.hai.how to care for the maids.at least i think she is ok. she does her basic duties well.jsut that her eyes are always puffy.i think she cries every night. her husband is a farmer. to choose a better life or to being able to live with the family.i guess everybody has different expectations in life. like pan's father.he told me that he would rather have his children back at home with him ,eat meals together. he dun need them to come to singapore and work so hard. anyway i feel like I want to help the maid and stopuncle from sackin her but how?helpless.
hai.think some maids are quite sad people.just like many foriegn workers from the thrid world countries. like alex' worker who is a graduate in india but he can't find job in india.became a construction worker here.but at least he gets a job.
next week is one whole week of carwash..hai..just watched ren ci charity show..very touching..exp. ming yi fa shi..its true.he has this "shi ming"..to care for, to give hope, raise funds for the ren ci patients..hmm..they were talking a lot about the patients in ren ci hospital..sounded very ppor thing..seems like many ppl in singapore need help..hai..but i am extendin help to overseas..hai..if someone were to ask, so many people in singapre need help, y go overseas? i may not be able to answer them convincinly but i know that 10K in myanmar/ cambodia would mean much more than in singapore.
hmm.actually i dunno y i am stilldoing education projects.yah.education is important in the long run.but i feel more for the sick and the orphans.will i be able to do anything for them?hai.i havent had the chance to really do what i feel for.hmm.actually without a school, students can still study.if there's really this will to study, under a tree, in the monastery..any place can be a school.so y am i still doin this project?hai.but at least i know that this project can help the locals and our own people.it can definitely changed some people.but how much impact it can bring to the community may be low and it will still not a project that i wil be very satisfied with cos there are more issues that i feel for. the sick, the poor and the orphans. no matter how good the sch, without the means to survive, in terms of health and food, the sch can't go far.
hai.wait till i have more chance to know a place.to go to a really poor place. to do an income generation project like the weavin centre.but i think to do all these, i need the contacts..either with an ngo.or to be able to sustain the project with trusted locals.like orphanages or some factory to generate income.
hai.mayb all the projects were done too hastily.guess i need more time to research and find the areas that i feel more for and really work for it.
hai.feeling tired.still need to write a thank you speech for pa8 donors..
how come like not enough time.i have less tuition.one less module.hai.
dunno.mayb i haf been tired for too long.
hai..laos and myanmar also no time to write about..
hmm..how cum always like no time..
sian.yesterday send emails can send till today 6am..amazingly..
sigh..anyway got a lot of things to say for these few days..
hmm..yesterday went to peninsula plaza to put donation tins..
along the way saw a few burmese.so pan asked them for donation..
wah..myanmar people are very willin to donate.one donated $5, another and severl $2. whoever she asked, he/she will donate.i guess this is the myanmar culture.many people mayb here but their hearts are back in their country.their shops have donaton tins that are raising funds for temples in myanmar.hmm.what about the Singaporeans in other countries? how do they feel?
anyway went to give joyce tuition after that.sigh.dunno y.hmm.i enjoy tutoring her tho i dun earn anything.but tutoring her has helped me become slightly close to my paternal side. however, being closer to the family also meant knowing more. n knowing more made me feel helpless.ah gong is old le..think he's 80 plus..starting to show child-like characteristics.wants the maid to go toilet for him and bathe for him..asked the maid to open ironing board just to see if she knows how to open. n ah gong is tormenting people around him like calling uncles/cousins and bluffin them he has fallen down so they would go c him.a little sad.ah gong used to drive the very very long lorries. ah gong used to tell me sensible things like "must study hard".now he came to tell me to ask the maid to go bathe when she didn't want to bathe.hmm.i rem cheng chye once mentioned about her mother.about remembering her good over the years rather than only in the recent years during her old age.i want to rem ah gong's good.to keep memories of his good rather than the child like, unsensible of him now.
ah ma just kena stroke. cried when i saw her at the hospital. someone who could wlak a few km.someone who could go to Genting, go for cruises, climb Great wall of china a few years back.now lying on bed and needs help to alk around.health is really a scary thing.that day i saw ah ma walking, the next day she felt like she was in bed. only got a chance to see her once. hafen had the time to visit her again =( but sometimes, it might be that i just dun want to go. felt helpless.
the maid at ah gong's hosue has been crying.got a chance to talk to her.she missed her 5 year old son.only been in singapore for 3 months. i guess its hard for her to adapt.but she said she has to work at least 10 months to repay the agent.dunno how she is going to sruvive the long 10 months without her son.but ah gong and all other relatives are complaining that she only knows how to cry but can't work.hai.how to care for the maids.at least i think she is ok. she does her basic duties well.jsut that her eyes are always puffy.i think she cries every night. her husband is a farmer. to choose a better life or to being able to live with the family.i guess everybody has different expectations in life. like pan's father.he told me that he would rather have his children back at home with him ,eat meals together. he dun need them to come to singapore and work so hard. anyway i feel like I want to help the maid and stopuncle from sackin her but how?helpless.
hai.think some maids are quite sad people.just like many foriegn workers from the thrid world countries. like alex' worker who is a graduate in india but he can't find job in india.became a construction worker here.but at least he gets a job.
next week is one whole week of carwash..hai..just watched ren ci charity show..very touching..exp. ming yi fa shi..its true.he has this "shi ming"..to care for, to give hope, raise funds for the ren ci patients..hmm..they were talking a lot about the patients in ren ci hospital..sounded very ppor thing..seems like many ppl in singapore need help..hai..but i am extendin help to overseas..hai..if someone were to ask, so many people in singapre need help, y go overseas? i may not be able to answer them convincinly but i know that 10K in myanmar/ cambodia would mean much more than in singapore.
hmm.actually i dunno y i am stilldoing education projects.yah.education is important in the long run.but i feel more for the sick and the orphans.will i be able to do anything for them?hai.i havent had the chance to really do what i feel for.hmm.actually without a school, students can still study.if there's really this will to study, under a tree, in the monastery..any place can be a school.so y am i still doin this project?hai.but at least i know that this project can help the locals and our own people.it can definitely changed some people.but how much impact it can bring to the community may be low and it will still not a project that i wil be very satisfied with cos there are more issues that i feel for. the sick, the poor and the orphans. no matter how good the sch, without the means to survive, in terms of health and food, the sch can't go far.
hai.wait till i have more chance to know a place.to go to a really poor place. to do an income generation project like the weavin centre.but i think to do all these, i need the contacts..either with an ngo.or to be able to sustain the project with trusted locals.like orphanages or some factory to generate income.
hai.mayb all the projects were done too hastily.guess i need more time to research and find the areas that i feel more for and really work for it.
hai.feeling tired.still need to write a thank you speech for pa8 donors..
how come like not enough time.i have less tuition.one less module.hai.
dunno.mayb i haf been tired for too long.
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