im talking to the blog..

i was msging huey lin the other day "im in the anti-social mode today..dun feel like talking online"..hai..mayb thats y..i'm talkin lots to the blog..

got to meet sze jie today!! so happy..has been 2 years since we last met..but none of us has really changed so at least we could still talk to each other..it kinda felt awkward initially..too long nv c also dunno where to start from.. but we slowly opened up..talking about future, abt jobs, abt relationships..its nice to meet up with an old friend..

i called alex and i ended up in tears again. as much as i wish to help him as a friend, i felt really unappreciated..mayb it was the way i talked..mayb we really couldn't communicate..but i have decided that i should just keep myself away..why should i continue to let myself be hurt..be upset..sounds like a selfish thot..but its been too tiring for me..

mayb i just don't have luck for any relationships..mayb i have too high expectations and everything just go hay-wire..mayb i have not been understanding enough and i have been imposing too much..mayb im just not the right person to help him thru..

i don't know who reads my blog but whoever reads and knows which alex i am talking about, and if you are a friend of him, talk to him and give him a pair of listening ears and help him thru..

as for me, i have given up...

hai..everyday just seemed to pass lidat. i quarrelled with mum about being a teacher.i kinda felt "forced" into teaching by mum when i needed more time to think about what i really wanted to do..sigh..