its been a looong time since i last blogged..

Hmm..as the title goes..its been a long time since i last blogged..more than 3 months..actually i thought my next post should be on Laos, on PA9 but..
im looking for a time when I can really sit down on e whole day at home, look through the photos, select photos that I want to develop, recall the memories and blog..
hai..but everyday has been like a mad rush..hai..looking forward to that one day =(

feeling a little nostalgic here..so decided to start posting..hmm..was at nelson's birthday party where they started talking about np stuff and about some np people..then i realised i haven really kept in touch with any CIs over the past few courses..i think its kinda sad..mayb when i get married, i won't have anyone whom I can invite..what a thought..just felt that everyone seemed to have their own cliques but i don't seem to fall into any clique..i also want to be able to have friends whom I can call out for a gathering as and when i feel like..but now, it seems so uncomfortable if I were to meet up with any group in particular..hmm..think I sound kinda lonely..mayb i have always been..

someone used to ask why I am always so busy..hai..i also dunno..there just always seems to be enough things for me to stay busy but I never knew what I was busy for..

it was nice meeting up with hazel on Monday..she's so adventurous..looking for all sorts of jobs..she doesn't mind low pay so long that she can learn..which is why she is happy with her a thousand plus job..hmm..she mentioned something that was so true "people tend to regret things that they did not do more than things that they did" hai..

im lost about what I want to do..be a teacher?i was touched by what ronglun said today..about how the teachers helped the Norm tech students build up their portfolio by asking them to do technical stuff..like their CIP was to design a toy and go to MINDS and share with them stories..
there was this guy who won a few awards for his products..when rl asked where he intended to study after this, he said, " aeronautical engineering" at ite dover..but he scared he has problems with transport costs becasue its very expensive..
hai..its kinda xin suan to hear of such real-life examples..transportation costs of $90 a month is a problem..hai..=( these are also people whom I can help..being a teacher is some kinda social worker too?mayb I don't really have to go for another part time degree in social work to get a social work-related job?

it feels terrible to have graduated and don't know where to go..hai..everytime i meet up with friends, its almost aobut the same thing..about finding a job..a direction..and building up the career..but im so lost..just simply lost..i dont mind teaching and yet, I want to explore mor options that I have.. =(

and today, I was really really touched to receive the call from Julius..all the way from Australia to congratulate me on my graduation..julius, if you are reading this, thank you..even though that you forgot the exact date, at least the thought still counts!!