MOE has replied.

Yes. MOE has replied on Tuesday, 17 July 2007. Dad called me when I was working at the clinic. he sounded quite happy excited. I asked what it said inside but he din understand.

and it so happened that i met a primary school friend, yu qing. hmm.not very close de. but its kinda i know you, you know me.was jus catchin up about life.

and i shared with her that im going to be a teacher. and it so happened that there was a teacher in the clinic, accompanying his dad for a check up. and she strongly discouraged me to be a teacher. some things that she shared was like..every department ranks their teachers accordingly. if you are ranked last in the department, you won't get any bonus for the year *shocked* ranking is done by the HOD so you have to have really good relationship with the HOD. hmm. file checks = checking if teachers have done their work. if students don't do work, they submit empty files, the teachers are the ones who get it. explain to the HOD and principal lor. so she stayed back with her student till 5 plus to make sure they submit their compositions. and teachers are complained for marking assignments too slowly. but a teacher has no control over the assignments that she has to give even though she might not have the time to finish marking cos the school designates the amount of work.

hai. so my mood's really dampened. =( anyway, the letter wrote that i need to serve one to one-half year of contract until nie has vacancy. which means my bond might stretch up to 5.5 years. and i will turn 27 by then.woah.very long.

hai.and the pay for contract teaching is not very worth it and the pay for being a teacher is not really that fantastic either. hai.

huey lin also kinda discouraged me. "you can't just 'don't mind' teaching but you have to be passionate about it." hmm. i dunno if i ever had the passion.

i'm so lost.

hmm.den i met Tremandy at the SCS Volunteers' Connection and she was encouragin me to go for a one year full time conversion degree in social work. lack of social workers in the market. hai. but i think i need to work first. degrees can come in later.

hai. i told mum and dad i might not want to go for teaching. dad was very encouraging. most importantly is your interest. yes. interest. but i dunno what i really want either. i guess as long as i can get to communicate with people.

and i have the urge to pursue a medical degree and forget about this whole thing on working. but i think i shouldn't add on to the financial burden in the family

but i heard about the interesting stories at school from ivan.rem about rl's stories from his sch. and rem ah tiang's excitment when she shared her school exposure. hai. teaching might not be that bad. if i were to reject MOE, i will nv know when i will find the job.its even more stressful.hai.perhaps, in a way, being a teacher is an easy way out for me.

came home today and i saw mum and dad watching tv in the room. sis went genting for holidays. they were so tired that they fell asleep with the TV on. hai. looking at them makes me just want to get a job and stop letting them worry about my job finding.to be able to give them money every month. let them stop working and start travelling. hai. so i guess i will take up teaching.

hai. sounds so "bo bian".i think i will enjoy teaching. i hope i can overcome all the politics, all the administrative problems. and i just find that the pay should be higher. hai. so i guess i will just have to give more tuitions to supplement the teacher's pay. hai. suddenly sound so money minded.

sleepy again. it has been a long weekend.