a long day?

the day din start out well..cos i overslept till about 7.15pm and I have to get to school before 7.40pm. but i was so fast that I reached school at about 7.39pm. =) but but but, i was walking so fast that I had quite a bit of blisters.. =(

anyway, went for my first NT class..class was noisy..but managed to tame them a bit..see differing people in the class..there was this bunch of boys who were really good with drawing..and i saw one of the boys drawing so i just asked him to draw something for me..woah..and he really drew something for me by the end of the class. *touched* and he was really happy cos i keep complimenting him " very very nice"..sometimes kids do need this kinda encouragement..

there was this boy who topped the class for social studies test. i had some time to talk to him after class so i asked him if he wanted to go Normal Academic. he readily said "yes" and said that he was too playful in primary school, now finally knows how to think and really wants to work hard and do well now.

oh yah.i took them for social studies for the first lesson. as usual, i dragged the lesson slightly..and it was a blessing in disguise cos the maths teacher was on MC and so, i took them for maths lesson as well.some of the kids really showed interest that they wanted to learn even tho they were a little slow. and cos the faster ones had finished, i could spend more time coaching the ones who were slightly slower.

some students are plain lazy but i somehow managed to get them to finish the work. so yah, Norm Tech kids are really ok! perhaps i haven seen the worst. but i just thot they were a bunch of nice and sincere kids.

when i left school today, the students saw me at the gate and were shouting " bye, ms lin! bye, ms lin!"..dunno y..just thot that my presence has been felt and not just a relief teacher =) im really looking forward to having a class of my own..

went to meet wendy to pass her the graduation gown.woah.its really been a while since i met everybody.hai.and i rushed to buy a "cantonese phrasebook" for rl. hmm. dunno y so nice lor. but i hope it will really help.

went to check out CDANs/ HomeTeamNS Rugged chalet. wasn't really up to my standard. the kitchen was dirty and if it rained, gone case. and the room was really an empty space. think i miss the bungalow near downtown..

tuition time. kinda stressed when i saw my sec 4 student "just pass" her preparatory exams..imagine i told her dad she was 60+ , 70 already. hai.

decided to go shopping for a blouse. yah. and i saw my civics tutor. dunno y. luckily he din c me. dunno y. din have the courage to go acknowledge him. i always felt that i was a "disgrace" to njc. =(

hai.came home and heard about bao long's passing away. a very cheerful friend whom i met when working at 3 for $10. hai. feeling kinda down. and there was this strong feeling to continue to maintain contact with friends. life's so unpredictable. hai. and i wonder, as i continue in my field of volunteer proabation officer, how many teens who sare having problems/ internal conflicts have i missed out? but i can't save the world.=( hai. it really takes a lot of courage to commit suicide. i remembered i did have such thoughts in jc but i nv had the courage. still had the suicidal notes that i wrote. hai. thinking back really scares me. im glad i pulled through.

hai. feeling down.

hai. and the next thing im going to do is to remind people about doing post expedition things for NYC funding. i doubt i have the means to bring everybody back to doin them =(

I am moving on!!

Lotsa confusion. Lotsa uncertainty in the past few weeks. But now, I am really looking forward to being a teacher.

anyway took up this tuition assignment to teach a Korean boy English. 3 times a week. super xiong. but i am enjoying. He specially came ot Singapore to study English for one and a half years. His dad said that if he learnt his English well enough for this one and a half years, he can go to USA to study English. woah. Its really a great responsibility on my part but its really fulfillin to see the progress each day.

Anyway, to the concerned friend who tagged my messagebox, I deleted your post because I do not agree with what you say. I am not sallowing in self pity. I am not just thinking and not doing anything. I just find that the words are too hurtful and decided to delete them. Maybe im a oversensitive and vulnerable person but I believe that I do not need such kinda concern from you. Apologies for being so harsh but I feel that i need more encouragement than whatever direct "shooting" that you were giving.

Rag has ended. suddenly the whole schedule feels strange. no more mornings at the float areas and rushing for tuition in the afternoon. no more late nights/mornings doing rag. hmm.
somehow I think God (no religion in particular) but just God has somehow helped me with this path. If I have applied for teaching earlier, I might not be able to really get involved in Rag. Rag has made me feel once again what it was to really work hard for something as a team. hafen felt it since campcraft comp 02.hmm.if i have applied for teachin earlier,i prob could not have been an attached senior and met my SOW OG. I might not have been able to make more friends like now.Might not have been able to have the time to go back for ATC. might not have met this wonderful group of tuition kids who are so diverse in their characters and hearing different stories from them every lesson.

So, I am really thankful for whatever has happened all this while. Things may not have gone the way that I wanted it but somehow, it seems to have turned out better. somehow, somewhere, God has helped pave a better path for me.Enjoying everyday. Living life to the fullest. =)