its been about 2 months since i wrote something here..its about finding the timing..finding the mood..finding the "un-laziness" to blog..there has been so much thoughts, feelings along the way and i guess i have forgotten quite a bit..better start blogging before i start losing all memory..



i think my blog's very boring..not much picture..but my pict size is really big..so have to resize den post it..a bit de tedious..for those who don't know, im already teaching..hmm..i dun haf the full workload yet..only 3 classes..one sec 1 science class (normal academic but supposedly the best normal academic class), one sec 4 and one sec 5 (chem and bio)..somemore chem and bio classes are co teach..so i think its quite slack..but having to cope with my 10 other tuition kids whom i still had at that time..a bit hard to breathe..yea..finally only left with 2 tuition kids and its later, i will finish my last tuitions with them..



Sec 1s are little hard to teach..sigh..i think less than half the class are listening to me when I teach in class..sad..the rest are in their own worlds..staring blankly..sigh..no wonder the nie trainer was saying that most of the teachers have adopted this attitude "i only teach those who want to listen" so the teachers just keep on blabbering..its not an effective lesson..



its true that nowadays kids are different..i told them i would be having extra lesson but come the day when I was supposed to have extra lesson, the kids said i did not say..some kids said they were going to ask their parents to complain somemore!! so some of them did want to stay so i told them to call their parents and asked their parents to talk to me..so true enough, they really did so and in the end, the parents still asked them to stay but they gave black face the whole lesson..hai..its really different..last time if teachers said stay we would just guai guai stay..



den comes the next scenario was these 2 boys refused to copy any notes..and they returned the revision notes to me!! super attitude..so i asked them " why do you all come to school?"

Boy 1: Come to school to study la

I: Den why you don't want to write notes?

Boy: Lazy and tired..dun want to copy..



Boy 2: Come to school to make friends and play lor..

I: But now can't play. why not do something else and not waste time?

Boy 2: Don't want. very boring.



sigh. dunno what to do with the kids.



sec 4 kids are nicer to teach..some might be playful..but in the end, most still make the effort to learn..



but i still enjoy teaching..enjoy listening to my students share about their problems with other classmates..share about new happenings which I have never heard of..laughed at their childishness..haha..like when i pulled a trolley of workbooks to a classroom, they were like saying " miss lin, you just came back from the airport? what u bought for me ar?"



hmm..yah..and its nice to see that my Sec 1 kids improved..esp this boy who got the highest in class for Science exam (never was the highest), he came up to me and said "Miss Lin, i also never expect to get the highest leh..but i studied your notes den get the highest. thanks." and he ended with a really joyous smile. so happy for him too.



hmm.yet, i do see guys who worked hard but did not score and yet, guys who did not work hard and scored..sometimes life's unfair..

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that was something i blogged 2 weeks back..kept in the drafts so now im continu-ing..looks like i have really got lots to write..
hmm..somehow the education system is skewed..in the end, results do matter..some of the kids dont do well academically but they do have other better skills..such as like good at communicating with others..(which many people do lack)..leadership skills..yet, when the results come out and they don't do well..they might just become a forgotten lot and left behind..
hai..so how do i break out of this cycle? how can the education system gives a more rounded assessment of the students?I spoke to a senior teacher with 20 years' of experience..he was encouraging.."things are slowly changing..it takes time"..

beginning to see more of the extra things that teachers are doing..all sorts of planning during the holidays..just finished a Science Challenge where we had some sort of amazing race with science games for primary school students..the school had a series of outreach programmes ot pri sch kids..next up will be open house..
and im planning with my mentor a new environmental science module for the school and collating exam papers..video-ing chemistry practicals demonstration
yah..sounds a lot..but i guess the other teachers have more to do..
but im really ok with the work..still think the workload is manageable..
maybe im really a workaholic..
haha..

had a talk with a teacher yesterday..he was advising me to think carefully if i really want to teach cos i haven been presented with the full idea of teaching..i had nice classes..less workload..
teachers had much more admin..form class, CCAs, teachers' committee, departmental duties..
hmm..but in the end, he just concluded, "you are just someone who hopes to lead a simple life, who wants to reach out to people. perhaps teaching can be for you" ..mayb its true..i hated the person who invented..den there won't be poor people in the world..

ok..i will end here..back to my work..
i have got so much to write....but..hai..i need time to do my work..