i relieved a class yesterday and i will always remember this student who asked me..
"Teacher, will you continue teaching after you finish your 3 years bond?"
i just said, "Don't know.." so the boy said.."i think it depends on the school you are teaching.." "If you come zhenghua den u might not want to continue teaching.." then he asked what subject i was teaching..i said "bio and chem"..den this student said," Chemistry? it's so difficult..cannot understand..difficult to teach too..lidat u confirmed won't continue after 3 years.."

what a conversation with the boy..

today was a bad day..
i only had 4 hours of sleep as I was busy preparing notes for the 2 hour bio lesson ahead..
but in the end, there wasn't any make up lesson and i couldn't even finish what i had to cover for the 1st lesson..
why was it so?
the students wanted a night class instead..7.30pm..it sounded ok to me cos the sec 4s were also having night class and the students were very enthusiastic..
i thought that it might be feasible..
but in the end, i got scolded by the operations manager..
"even the HODs used the canteen to teach"..yah..i can't be compared to a HOD..of course..
i was chided by my CT..
hai..the night class was cancelled..

so in the end, i have to call/ sms the students to inform them about the cancellation of the lesson..i have to ask the students to stay back after class tmr..and i have to rush to cover things again..the feeling of rushing really sucks..

and i was even sadder cos my CT said i should have continued the lesson even though some of them have to leave..and that those who left for the test actually had a choice to take the test yesterday but instead, they took it today, causing the class to miss out on the remedial..maybe i am just too soft hearted..

hai..den today, i submitted the files for file checks..and i was kinda "scolded" again..
i din mark the Sec 3 worksheets after i have gone through with them..i only marked homework..and there were only 2 pieces..so she like saying " 2 pieces for 10 weeks" thats too little marking! hai..i din realise it..it just didn't cross my mind..but for the Sec 2T1, i did look through all their worksheets cos i expected that they would have errors..hai..too much assumption..so i might fail the portion on feedback..

just feeling kinda upset..cos it always seems that all my efforts would just go to waste somehow..something bad would just crop up and its really disappointing..

what makes things worse was that i din bring my handphone to school..my sis said she can reach bukit panjang by 3.30pm..but at 3.15pm, she was still at her friend's house..as i had to meet nigel to go buy heart, i even have to ask her to take a cab to pass to me..hai..

everything just seemed to go wrong... =( hai..felt so much better after pouring in out in words and tears...i wonder if i am really suited for the teaching line.. everybody's looking so happy..except me..

just came out of 2T1..
feeling so down again..

I always thought that I will be able to handle the normal tech students..
but i realised i can't. =(

so much time is wasted on the discipline that I dun even have enough time to finish the contents.
i really envy miss ang who's able to control the class so well..
hai.
when can i ever teach the class in peace?

the power of 3 dollars

Its been a long weekend but I haven't been doing much work..
been so busy rushing appointments until I can take a breather today..

hmm..
had dinner with hazel on thursday..i could finally squeeze out some time to meet hazel..
anyway she made me realise the importance of keeping in contact with friends..
yah..i think i should put in more effort to keep in contact with friends..

on friday..had national day celebrations in school..den went for rag..reached home..had dinner den went to edwin's house to pass his dad "chicken feet" and "pe tai"..

on saturday..woke up only at 10 plus on sat..did up the guidelines for the project on sound..den went to grandma's house..went for tuition..

on sunday...woke up at 9am..went for tuition..den had lunch with bao, wenhui n fenglan..
rushed home to change..went for shufen's wedding..back home..chatted on msn..

today..woke up at 7plus..touched up a lesson plan..den went for tuition..
after tuition i went to raffles place to change money for edwin..had to withdraw $15K..think the teller was not quite convinced by my signature (as usual) my signature always changed..asked all the money changers available..everybody give me the rate of 1.258, 1.259, 1.26..got one shop had no rate..keep askin me to wait for half hour..i waited for 15 mins..decided to go buy 4D..den went back to the shop..he still says half hour..got fed up..and decided to settle for the 1.258, that is, 1.258 sing dollars for 1 aussie dollars..

hai. so on the way home, i was calculating the difference between 1.259 and 1.258..its about 9 dollars plus difference..den i was thinking..mayb its not worth spending the time and effort for these few dollars..

but i met this auntie at lot 1...(was at lot 1 to check if the rates varied much..1.263) she was asking me to help her to change for a $3 voucher..apparently for every $30 spent in Lot 1, you can change for a $3 F&B voucher. this auntie was quite poorly dressed and she looks kinda scared. she passed me 2 receipts that amount to $50 plus (i think she picked from the floor) and asked me if i could help change for $3 voucher at the information counter..she was asking if i was a singaporean cos need to show IC..and then mumbled that one person can only change once a day..(either she's nota singaporean or she has changed more than once)..so i agreed to help..its easy..just go there and change..

i returned to the escalator to look for her..
she was squatting at a corner of the escalator..and she kept looking at the information counter to see if the receptionist was following me..mayb she was marked by the receptionist..she thanked me and looked so gratified to have the $3 voucher..i dunno..maybe i always tink about the worst but i just felt really sorry for her..

it was then that it dawned upon me that $3 could buy someone a simple meal. it would probably mean so much to someone who hasn't eaten for days..(btw, the auntie looked kinda skinny)
so i guess perhaps, its not really a bad idea that i went so far to change money..

every cent and every dollar really counts..

there are so many people suffering in the world..i want to do something for them..but what can i actually do?