back from Indo wedding!

hai..back from indonesia le..attended Uncle "willy" wedding...
each time i'm back from indonesia, i will have a sense of heavy heartedness..

Mum brought lotsa things back to indonesia..5 full bags..food and clothes for the children and adults..Actually i think my mum's really lucky cos she had the chance of leading a better life in singapore as compared to her siblings..but it also makes her have a heavier sense of duty to take care of them...and somehow, she has impacted me that the load of taking care of my cousins might also be on me in future..dad isn't very happy that mum always lend them money or bring so much things back...hai..i can empathize with mum's feelings..it's just like how i would bring tons of stuff to cambodia...hope edwin will be supportive of me if i carry on my mum's traits...

children are really easy to "hong"..cos just some chocolates and sweets can make them so happy...adults have more to worry...its always about how to earn enough money to sustain for the next few months..

hai...i felt so bad when mum wanted to throw away my heels cos the surface of the heels was peeling off..then my aunt wanted to take it..she says its not spoilt..so why throw it away so she wanted to have it...hai...i felt that i was kinda wasteful, especially when people around me are trying so hard to save money...

hai..i now understand what it means by "ignorance is bliss"...hai...as i grow older, i understand more of the conversations among the adults... and thus, all the unhappiness that is happening..like my cousin does not have enough money to take exams and another cousin does not have enough money to enter high education instituition (which is like 'poly' in singapore)..hai..the not enough money is about less than 200 hundred...sigh..one trip to cambodia will cost more than that...hai...and this money could mean so much to my cousins' education...hai....

sometimes, i am very angry with my uncles for not working harder to give their children a better life... but looking at the economy in balai, im also wondering how people actually survive... sigh.. =( i still remember that I told myself i must bring more friends to Balai so that it can help to boost uncle's income...hai...but seems like i haven't been able to do so...

hai..seems like there's lotsa things i wanna do in life but i haven't been able to do...
1. learn lifesaving
2. do a YEP in balai
3. learn bahasa indonesia
4. learn guitar

hai...i need some motivation....not forgetting the orphanage at tibet..

woah..its been 4 months since i blogged...
teaching has its fair share of ups and downs..

hai..it felt like a long journey..though only 4 months have passed =(

suddenly felt like blogging cos i just found out that one of the Chinese teachers in my school used to teach at nygh..no wonder i found her familiar..just that throughout my 4 years, i never had a chance to be taught by her...and she taught at ny for 25 years!

anyway, we shared so much fond memories about our school, old campus (including the floods), new campus, uncle jack, xiao hei, the old principal (mrs ng gan lay choo), the teachers, the chinese pledge taking, the bilingual speeches by the principal...what a strong sense of nostalgia...

anyway, the whole conversation ended with "ni zai zhe li jiao de hai hao ma?" it was a simple question but i could feel that concern she has as teacher to a ex-ny student...hai...as usual, i just replied "still coping"...it just felt great to have someone to relate to and share the nice memories of ny..guess that was one of the best parts of my life...

i should go back to work...write another time...