hai...im not happy...actually i havent really been happy...

anyway, i should talk about things that make me feel better...met my 2T1 students from zhenghua sec @ the LMSC today..hai..the feeling's so nice when the students greeted you from afar "miss lin" and were so excited to talk to you..its glad to hear that g has moved on to NA from NT...there was an especially warm feeling when the students said "come back to zhenghua to teach us leh"...

hai..but prior to these nice soothing scenes were words of discouragement "you are not really needed here"..being treated as transparent and unheard..being deemed as not capable..where efforts are not acknowledged...

sigh..as much as i felt injustice to how i was treated, come to think of it, i dun really have much worth...poor classroom management,anyone can easily handle the classes better than me...lessons lack innovation and creativity...poor voice projection...thot my rapport with students not too bad...but actually its just like that only...i dun have any niche area...music learn already so-so...ballet learn liao also so-so...sports also so-so...IT skills so-so...jack of all trades but master of none..hai..