hai..life has been difficult to pass by for the past 3 days...

sigh..the school holidays syndrome..nothing much to do...except to start preparing work for the new term.. (but its about 1 week more to go)..lacking that motivation...

just start to feel that my life's kinda screwed up..cos of my busy-ness for the past few years, i seemed to losing that human touch...was looking at facebook and msn..though there are many names, but there just doesn't seem to be many whom i can just talk freely with or just randomly ask to meet..

if i should try to ask a friend out, it all seems to take much efforts and probably to a certain extent awkwardness..

perhaps, i have been too used to friends organizing this or that gathering...such that im not used to being the organizer...hai...just found out that there was a kayaking gathering today for BOH..and I was kinda missed out/ not informed..hai....just felt kinda sad..actually my presence has not made any difference..it won't be like...when there's a gathering, people would start asking " where is xiaojun?"..4 projects..pa7, 8, 9 and BOH...which project can i actually maintain that special link? even like ivan could go to australia with pa10 people..

hai..whats wrong with me? mm was right..he is now so busy that he doesn't have time to emo...probably im too free..such that i have time to emo... =(

need to be busier...