30 August 2009

i was upset when edwin asked if i sms-ed his parents before they left on 29 august 2009.
I said i did not. he was a little upset but he said since they have already flown off, he shouldn't be upset.

hai. but i was angry by the fact that he could actually get upset over me not sms-ing his parents.
he tried to explain. but i just couldn't accept his explanation.

the conversation continued and became nasty. perhaps it was my tone.
like i said that my bf could not hold a birthday party for me, he said " is it my choice?"..
perhaps, what i expected was just " never mind. just wait for 1 more year and i can help you organize..

i can't remember what the other part of the conversation was..but i just burst into tears and cried non-stop for the whole night, saying that i want to break up. AND this time round, Edwin agreed.

he refused to patch back even till now. even when mum called, he said " he found no point continuing the relationship since i kept on saying "break up".

these 3 days..i just realised how important he was..
i realised he was the pillar of strength for me for the past 2 years..
i lost total energy in my work..
i couldn't concentrate..