still feeling down for 3 days..

on monday, i told off 2 students for copying in their tests by asking them to explain their working..
they indignantly just said "we copied lor!"
omg..how come they are not embarrassed that they made a mistake..
the worst thing was one of the girls took back the test paper and crushed the papers on the floor..
innocently, i walked past her table and saw a crushed paper on the floor..
i was so angry..i just told her off.."it is your fault..why are you crushing the paper on the floor, making it as tho its MY or the paper's fault?"
hai.. then she refused to talk.. i was already upset cos the class din do well despite that it was an open book test.. =(
woah.. i felt so angry that im suffering all these grievances..

on tuesday, the student who was upset with me about reporting the smooching foto on facebook refused to answer my questions when i asked her about her meet-the-parents session form and when i asked her to read.. "take out for WHAT? I also won't read!" then she started laughing about other classmates about my little tummy..

brought students to east coast park..most of them were sitting at the park, rather than doing work.. so angry..students even went to buy food from macdonald's when they did not do any work..and talked back to me as tho they were not at fault..

really very sad.. i dun understand y i am teaching such students..
i still wanted to take up masters for another 2 years..but sigh..

hmm..somemore, i dun feel that im having any breakthrough in my work.. im not thought of highly by the HOD.. he doesn't even ask for my opinions during meetings or discussions.. and of course, i dun have any outstanding talent and wisdom to display.. =(

even in npcc, the boys' team that i was in charge of could only barely clinch 63rd position.. while the girls' team actually managed to get 23rd position! i dunno if it has to be with the team itself..
but perhaps, im not a good trainer/ leader..

hai.....

hope thurs and fri will be better =(