broken trust

hmm..there's this student who has been helping lots with the bio project..
he was a problematic student but i kinda forgotten all his bad problems and chose to believe that he was a nice and helpful boy after all..
until the phone went missing..

sigh..somehow, the trust that i had in him just vanished.. it was like a sense of being "betrayed"..
but perhaps, i just tend to believe too much in people..

anyway, attended the 1st yec meeting and Meet-the-People session..
was an eye opener..
hmm..but im not confident of contributing..
so busy with school work le..
but then, i thought that getting myself involved in something else was a good way to break away from work..
sigh..c how lor..

anyway, kenneth had this crazy idea of asking me to consider k..
haha.. i just said "no" cos he's a christian/ catholic..

hmm..and suddenly i was reminded of this when mr c kunalan shared about how he got together with his wife despite of all the parental objections.. with the pledge in mind "regardless of race, language or religion".. i thought mr c kunalan's family was really interesting.. and i was kinda proud to have been thought by his daughters =) omg.. din know that gina kunalan married an ang moh!
but most importantly, he inspired me with his determination, the determination in academics and in sports.. amazing man!

anyway, i just realised that when i was with edwin, there was something to look forward to everyday.. i think its really heartwarming to be able to see someone you love at the end of each day..not that i dun love my parents.. but its different..
sigh..now that he's not with me anymore, i lost that something to look forward to everyday..
which is why life seems more meaningless..

need to look for something else to look forward to everyday instead..