i guess my happy moments are often written on facebook!
and blogging is where i write the unhappy things..

i need to stop wallowing in self-pity and unhappiness and start picking myself up to fight against all odds..i hear and see people enjoying themselves and doing well in teaching..
but i find myself trapped..stagnant..and seem to be fighting a losing battle..

had a terrible time with 2b today.. hates going through workbooks and test papers..

went to 4a.. george and zhiwei had an argument.. again.. sigh.. my bad.. for putting george behind zhiwei.. =( nasim came in and scolded the class for having no heart.. seems like nobody wants to be zhiwei's friend.. sigh.. i guess i havent done enough drilling and scolding.. and i just realised that i might just have forgotten the real essence of being a teacher.. its not about grades..but the "heart" of the students.. sigh.. mr nasim said they were not human beings.. need to emphasize that no one is perfect.. they shouldn't be bullying someone who is defenceless.. thats not what a man should do..

i feel that im not mature enough to handle the class..to manage and resolve conflicts..to inculcate the right values.. where can i go to allow myself to grow further? i need to be firmer.. for example, simple things like giving deadlines to other teachers.. was told off to set deadline as friday instead of sunday..

went through the paper with 4a. i dunno how to go through such that they will listen. =( i hope to be a better teacher..