meaningful weekend spent with besties but it ended on a not-so-happy mood again..

As I grow older, I learn to treasure more and more of friends around me..
Glad to have spent the weekend with friends..
Sat: Cycling @ ECP with Rabi, Lala, YW and Ting + Wonderful lunch (duck rice/ porridge, chicken wings, stingray, lala and kangkong)
Sun: Dim Sum with bit and sean + prayers at temple + shopping @ Bras Basah + udders + nua-ing @ my house and bit's house..

i got a bad divination from the Kwan Im Thong Hood Cho (Temple).
"One dreams of wealth and status. Pop goes the dream like smoke. The endless sea and space do not accept one as rich. Wait till a Benefactor comes to help you."

Interpretation: Bad
Do not hope for non-existent object and objectives.
Work for success in a more concrete and genuine way.

I asked about marriage. Was it hinting anything? Perhaps, I wouldn't get married in the end. Perhaps, I shouldn't harbour any hopes for a patch back or to fall in love with a someone..
sigh.. =( was it hinting that whatever that I am doing has become more and more fake? n perhaps, I don't even realise it?

anyway, an uncle asked for $2 and i gave him. I didn't know how to reject him and i just gave him. for a moment, i hoped i had someone beside me..someone who can help me to discern the good and bad.. which i have not been able to do that..

then i saw photos on facebook. i was a little upset with myself for having being a little "loner" when i was doing practicum at ZSS, for not having a special clique in CDSS, for being too task oriented most of the times and forgetting, i'm dealing with humans, not just work.. just all in all, i felt shitty.. for having poor social skills.. i hope its not too late to change..
i think im trying to change.. but sometimes, i just find it so how to share my thoughts and feelings and just strike conversations with people.. i think im an introvert.. somehow, deep in my heart.. yah.. mm was right.. im just a boring person..